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Sunday, May 25, 2008

A week of leave

I can't seem to write these days. Don't know where to start, don't know what to write about; there's just been too much going on these days and every time I sit in front of my com, I just feel like playing games instead. Maybe my brain's getting lazy. Nevermind, I'll leave my thoughts in my head for a little while longer. For now, something lighter.. like food!

That's brownies with New Zealand Naturals Chocolate Ecstasy from Essential Brew. Went there on Vesak Day with Yiwen and Vaish. I think it looks better than it tastes haha but still not bad lah. Plus the ambience and other food were quite nice.

Then on Friday went to Seasons Reasons with my mum. Lol, it's tucked away in a corner at the Raffles City basement. The decor was quite weird.. kept reminding me of a wedding, and the waiter was strange.. But other than that the food was quite nice! The Spicy Spaghetti Goreng turned out pretty alright for fusion, although I found out I can't stand basil leaves or whatever those overpowering green bits were. Well, slight dent on an otherwise good meal, and not to mention there was a 1 for 1 main course promotion for UOB cards heh.

And finally, went out with part of the brudderhood to catch Indiana Jones! Whee, with Made of Honour last week as well, this 1 movie a week thing might just work out, now there's about 2 more to go! Well, the movie wasn't too bad, some parts could be better elaborated on but oh well, the focus of going out yesterday was that we finally met up again. Right, so it was only Jeremy, Dali, Willy and I. Nonetheless it was nice to see each other again and with the government giving us an allowance, we being good citizens duly put it back into the economy by spending on.... food!

Yea, it was the first time in recent memory that I recall spending more than 5.90 on food with them heh. Guess times have changed haha! So we went to Changing Appetites at Marina Square. Their value set of baby back ribs fajitas, a soup and a drink was pretty good.. And may I say very filling too. But unfortunately they do have some bad stuff like, as Jeremy points out, Cheese the Chicken lol. Oh and we had mudpies for dessert too!

This one tastes better than in looks no thanks to the overexposure.. (Sorry, I'm still new at this!) That said it reminded me more of a McFlurry than anything else though =/ And someone please tell me why on earth is it called a mudpie??

After dinner we went to explore the river lol. From Marina Square all the way to Clarke Quay. We were supposed to go catch River Fools but unfortunately, and I apologise, the show was at 8(We reached at 9<>.<>)

And so after a long and pretty eventful week... I'm still not ready to go back to camp. Haiz. I'm sorry, even after all I've heard and all I've thought through, I just can't get it off my mind. I can't convince myself that it's fine. Even if it might get better. Even if I might be out of there in 4 weeks. Because mights aren't will, and in the army, you aren't booking out until you've stepped out of camp.

As much as I can try, the army's really not my thing. I can try to live with it, but I don't think I can grow to like it. Especially in terms of regimentation and their definition of discipline. It's not that I'm a rebellious soul and I can't take rules, it's just that I don't like my freedom of movement and freedom of expression in particular to be compromised. Perhaps I was treated too well in my previous place, but there we learnt that that was how we should be treated. In line with the ideas of Thinking Soldier and Commanders to be. And I can't help but agree. Hasn't it been shown in history that the best results come with cooperation instead of submission? I really hope that the first day was just a shock and awe. To maybe shake us up a bit. In my opinion it's ridiculous that we come so far for this. We just got promoted, not demoted.

I really hope I'll find the strength to get through this.. not miserably but happily.

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Grr...

I did not come so far to be treated like this.

Food for thought
No one owes Singapore a living - how about neither do I?

I'm already serving my social responsibility, the least you could do is provide some decent support.

This is a terrible start. Things had better get better soon.. I hope.

Sunday, May 04, 2008

Point form

- Warning -
Much random babblings that might not make sense and sound long winded ahead.
Reader discretion is advised

1. Music actually has a very powerful impact on me. Don't know if it's a good or bad thing, but it generally has the ability to calm me down when I'm feeling all restless or it can make me moodier at other times.

2. My life since NS has been quite messy. For perhaps the first time, it's lacking in a sense of direction. I'm kind of bobbing around, going where the current sweeps me and taking it a step at a time. Not sure whether to hang in there or call it quits. I just can't seem to commit myself. There are just some things I really dislike.

3. I still don't really have a life out here, outside of camp that is. I try, but still, my mind tends to wander back somehow. Strangely I don't remember thinking so much about school back in JC. Maybe it's the lingering feeling of being overwhelmed.

4. I'm spending a lot of money lately. Food, transport and entertainment. Argh. And I intend to go out some more in the coming weeks. Maybe staying in camp is a good thing. Damn, there I go again.

5. I'm going to go get that LBV!

6. I need a new real LBV. My zip died just before field camp. Just as in just when I was about to set off.

7. I'm still talking about NS.

8. I'm starting to enjoy writing in point form.

9. It is quite addictive lol.

10. Ok, enough of this nonsense. I can't remember why I'm here. Guess I just wanted to get a little relief by unloading the 琐事 that's on my mind. Can't quite think of anyone who wouldn't actually find it a bother. Sigh.

11. I remember someone talking about soulmates a year or so ago. I think it was JW. But anyway, soul mate not in the romantic sense but rather just someone who shares your interests, with whom you can talk to and such. Maybe be a confidant as well. And it's all completely platonic. Perhaps it's better known as buddy or something, but buddy seems to sound more suitable for guys. (Hah. I wonder why.) And I wonder if I'll ever find one. Lol.

12. Right, so the 4 day bumper weekend is at its end. (and don't I just love writing like that) Had a May day outing which wasn't very exciting. Was quite tired I think, but lunch was good albeit expensive. We had the set meal from Out Of The Pan, basically a salad, any crêpe from the à la carte menu and a drink for 20++. Well since the price was fixed I decided to try the cream of escargot. Yum. The sauce very nice haha but portion a bit small though.

Then after that went over to marina for a short game of pool, some daytona and people started zaoing. Oh, and I remember watching the sun cast different shades on the Mandarin Oriental for about 2 hours lol. The sky was clear and the sun was setting. Weather was starting to cool too. Very nice after coming back from field camp.

13. Went to Settlers cafe yesterday. Very tired again. Haha, I'm very tired lately sheesh, yet I don't want to sleep. Haiz. Must force myself to take the bitter pill of getting rest in order to play hard another day. But interestingly, as Yiwen pointed out, we should actually pool the money we spend at settlers to buy a board game which we can play forever. Lol, and it actually sounds viable and more worth it too.

14. It's finally ending, both this entry and my BSLC. 2 more weeks to go. Then I'll be a corporal and get a pay raise. Whee. Right, then hopefully something good happens after that.

15. The End.